Greetings, friends! I'm driving across country finally and I'm about halfway there. My back is killing me!
Over the last couple of weeks, I have been packing and getting ready so I didn't have any time to write. I also had the added tasks of a project and 2 finals. I finished on Thursday and left on Friday. I spent the first night in Alabama with the kids, the second night in Shreveport, LA and tonight I'm In Amarillo, TX. Tomorrow I'll get up and head to Flagstaff, AZ. I should arrive in CA on Tuesday and I'm headed up the mountain on Wednesday for work!
It's been an emotional rollercoaster to say the least.. I had someone step in and out of my life right before I left I guess just to stir the pot. He threw me off course for a couple of weeks now. He's the definition of passive aggressive. He contacts me, tells me how he felt about me and then fell off the face of the earth again. I've pretty much had enough. I care about him but I'm just going to have to ignore him. He's not in a good place and he brought me down with him. I cannot have that. I have far too much to conquer over the next few months. I am finally getting my mind to a point where I feel like I want to date again but it just wouldn't be fair while I'm all over the country. It's almost time to work on my brand.
Happy thoughts! Cheers, y'all!!!
Sunday, May 15, 2016
Monday, May 2, 2016
What is happening?
This weekend, I haphazardly packed some things and brought them to my storage unit. I shuffled some stuff around to make more room. I think I got it figured out. I always hate packing. You'd think I would stop moving so much. I just still have so much to achieve before I settle down. Seems like I'll always be living out of a duffel bag, literally and figuratively.
The time is drawing near where I'm hitting the road for this trip! I say trip, but what I really mean is for my job... I know it's work but I have in mind that this might not be the work that I'm used to. I'm not saying it'll be easy, but it'll beat working with that ate up chef I worked for last summer who was so negative about everything and didn't teach me shit. It really had me thinking I had chosen the wrong line of work. No, just the wrong kitchen.
So a few months ago I was in a crummy relationship with a guy that I cared for very much. He had a lot of emotional problems (even more than me!) and finally he ended it with me after he had seemingly driven himself nuts. I took it really hard and have struggled with it ever since. I kept wondering what I could have done differently. I hadn't reached out to him. I felt I was the wounded animal in this situation and if he wanted to talk to me then he would. Well guess what? He messaged me today via Facebook. I have really mixed emotions about it. I felt a rush of anger, sadness, but yet relief when I saw who the message was from. He said he had been thinking about me and wondered how I was doing and that he'd felt a lot better... Ding ding ding! Red flag alert! I don't really know what he has in mind. I asked if he would meet me to talk this weekend before I head west. He said he'd like that. Who knows if it will happen.. We'll see. These are my thoughts for today..
The time is drawing near where I'm hitting the road for this trip! I say trip, but what I really mean is for my job... I know it's work but I have in mind that this might not be the work that I'm used to. I'm not saying it'll be easy, but it'll beat working with that ate up chef I worked for last summer who was so negative about everything and didn't teach me shit. It really had me thinking I had chosen the wrong line of work. No, just the wrong kitchen.
So a few months ago I was in a crummy relationship with a guy that I cared for very much. He had a lot of emotional problems (even more than me!) and finally he ended it with me after he had seemingly driven himself nuts. I took it really hard and have struggled with it ever since. I kept wondering what I could have done differently. I hadn't reached out to him. I felt I was the wounded animal in this situation and if he wanted to talk to me then he would. Well guess what? He messaged me today via Facebook. I have really mixed emotions about it. I felt a rush of anger, sadness, but yet relief when I saw who the message was from. He said he had been thinking about me and wondered how I was doing and that he'd felt a lot better... Ding ding ding! Red flag alert! I don't really know what he has in mind. I asked if he would meet me to talk this weekend before I head west. He said he'd like that. Who knows if it will happen.. We'll see. These are my thoughts for today..
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